Anyway, I've been really anxious. Worried about the drive, the work, the reading, the writing, the being in class with people day in and day out. But, I had moment at Christmount last week. I went out on the prayer walk later in the afternoon, and I took my little travel Bible (which is just the cutest thing in the world). While I am not one to encourage spiritual growth by closing your eyes, opening your bible, running your finger down the page and then believing you have received a message from God...that is exactly what I did! I was just feeling stressed. The passage that I fell upon was from Isaiah 43:1-2, 4. It goes like this:
But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel:
Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you....
Because you are precious in my sight, and honored, and I love you.
That passage hit home. Do not fear. I have called you by name. You are mine.
I am not called by Drew University. I am called by God. I do not belong to my professors or my assignments or my successes or my failures. I belong to God. The truth is that I've been trying to power through all my assignments by will power - on my own strength. Granted, I do have to be diligent in my efforts, but ultimately, it is God who steps in and pulls me through. Somehow, that reminder gave me the push I needed.
So, bring it, Drew!